Hard Times...

As summer nears, I think about how amazing and fun it will be. I think about how far I have come as a person in the last several months and how I wish I was able to come this far in finding myself sooner. Truth is there was something holding me back, although I am not ready to talk about that one thing yet, I know that I am slowly overcome it. I can finally find the strength to let my walls down and not be so guarded, I can let people see the real me.

To most people I will still come off as quiet and shy, I am honestly not like that. I just have these walls up to protect myself from getting hurt like I did. I still have a hard time letting myself trust people fully. But there are a few people I can say, I trust with my life... even though at time it may not seem like it. I am insecure about things, but if any of you endured or experienced what I did then you would feel that way too.

To those I love, I would love to sit down and just open up about my deepest darkest secret and never have to worry about you judging me, because I know you won't. I just do not feel like I am strong enough to do so just yet. Maybe one day soon.