Summer and emotions

It seems like summer is a time for adventures and spending too much time with those you love most. Whether those people are your family, friends, or that special someone. This summer so far I tackled the Jordin Sparks Tour, my cousin's 21st b-day and at the end of August I will finally make it to the beach.
Some of my friendships are stronger, and I feel like some are unraveling. I am confused as to what I really am to some people and where I really stand in their lives. I feel ignored, inspired, lonely, suffocated, and hurt. The way some things have been left I feel as though some people are trying to push me out of their lives, or they never wanted me there in the first place and they are choosing their own ways to show this.

So back to tour, it was sad to say goodbye to everyone, I miss them all dearly. I did not cry then and there on the spot, because I don't think it had completely hit me. I did however cry on the hour and a half drive home that night.

I am emotional, even though I try to hide them. I may wear my heart on my sleeve, but one of my biggest fear is rejection. So please just be careful when you play with my emotions, because one of these days I may just explode and go back to some old ways.