Why does things from the past haunt you at the worst moments. I just want to open up but I can't, I want to trust you but it is difficult. And now I feel like I messed everything up. I never really dealt with things completely I just put up walls, put on a mask and went on pretending everything was absolutely fine. Now you came along and all those things I ignored keep me from letting you in. I wish I could say all of this to you face but that would be letting my walls down around you and I am working on that. I just hope you will give me the time I need and be patient with me because even though I may not be as strong or confident as you thought I was. I still am extremely caring and optimistic. I pretend I don't care what people think but at the end of the day I do. I hate when people say they will do something and they don't. I hate being the center of attention because it is lonely being there. and I am afraid of being a failure. Yours Truly